The great robbery!

It's almost 2am... The day began way too early. I slept only for five hours. Kin and I had plans doing tons of thing(domestic but of course). Skyped with Louie for a while, she's in control ever since last few heavy dosages of my mental peace. The afternoon was spent in on and off discussions with D, she had a bitter fight with Malli and needed somebody to listen to her. It was nice to be her patient listener but that kind of delayed our plans for the day. Had lots of banter with Kin, called him 'batadee Gangu' which is kinda my thing with Louie. |Gosh! I miss that woman so much.

We reached BMO and opened a student account, this is because TD doesn't give a free SPC card. I like the way Kin joins almost all my schemes, it's just the way I would do for Boo. The weather outside was plesant and thus the whole walk to TC was not so bad. I checked the deals for the cell phones which I have to send back home and managed to crack an awesome deal on Nokia E73 mobile phones. I am planning to send a Google Nexus for Baapoo as a surprise from me. I know he won't like the fact that I over spent but soon he'll enjoy his BIG Touch screen phone.

Walmart was a fun shopping experience. Shopping these days is a light affair since I have driven a line on our personal consumables with Kin. We both buy what we actually want to buy without putting off the other. As usual we went overboard with our shopping baggage and all the fun of shopping was put to trial while carrying the stuff back. We both didn't have gloves thus our hands were freezing numb with the baggages. After five minutes of walk we gave up and Kin kinda grabbed this unattended/discared and kind of broken trolley from the parking lot. We were scared to the core but at the same time it was an howlarious experience. We made so much fun of each other with our endless nonsensical banter. Officially this is how we laid our hands on our FOUR wheeler without a valid licence which by the way we plan to return 'morrow back to the parking lot. I won't say it was stealing, I would say we borrowed help. They say na, 'majboori ka naam Mahatma Gandhi' something like that ;)

After we came home, I spent a couple of hours teaching the kids. H is getting better but honestly she needs to improve her attitude tremendously. Again lots of banter with D and the kids and Kin was with us on and off. I am happy and content with the crazy bunch that I am blessed with. A BIG Cheers to this family away from home!!!

I'll be always there for you!

It's 4 am already! Rembrandts I'll be there for you is playing in my head, may be 'coz I just read Boo's recent post. Gosh! I love this guy but I am kinda scared to show my concern since he's already overburdened with a lot of emotions and I like the current equation with him. If I try changing any of the constants from the current one I am pretty sure the equilibrium will go for a toss. We are always(mostly) a call away and irrespective of all said and done we'll be good friends no matter what that's kind of beauty of our relationship when we want we can be the closest of buds and otherwise. I hate to see him feel low, especially he's one person whose capabilities I have never doubted ever. I have a strong feeling that he's made for greatness and he inshallah will reach his destination one day for sure. Amen!

Just got off the phone with Zimbo. He's too keen to join my batch for all the common classes that we have and I am somehow too reluctant to do so. It's mostly wise speaking to him but I am scared of his double edgy nature. We could have been best of buddies but we never will be since I'll never be able to trust him. The conversation with him always ends on a depressing note but somehow he never achieves his mission of demotivating me instead it gets me into my zealous self to prove him wrong. Malli just walked in my room. I really like him and his better half equally. I share different rapport with both of them but the rapport with Malli is usually secretive in nature and I hate that fact but what could I do? As long as I know my journey and I keep others informed too I am good to go. Feasting on some really awesome Shawarma roll and orange juice, which has been sneaked in by Malli secretively for me. Theirs is another example which kind of puts me off from the whole big M thing. Why can't two people just be each other's soul mates and live happily ever after?

I went to Sai Mandir today with Kin and Hash. Hash is Kin's so called bff from childhood, he seemed an okay guy to me and I think we'll get along well. The line up at the temple was worse than back home but it was a pretty relieving experience for me. I have had plans of visiting forever and finally I managed a visit. On our way we saw the Lindt chocolate factory which we plan to visit soon. Sometimes Kin and I get along so well and sometimes otherwise but the only person who can manage peacefully with me is he!

Tomorrow's the last day of the break after first semester and like Kin says lots to do. We have to kill many birds tomorrow and hopefully we will. Sipping orange juice to that. Cheers!

Nachos, Cola and Movies!

Started the day very late. Kin had survived on bread and butter till I woke up way past our lunch time. Poor thing, sometimes I really appreciate his patience with me but most of the time otherwise. Cooked lavish meal and was satisfied with the happy look on Kin`s face when we ate. After the food we headed to TC for Walmart on our way went to BB to return Malli`s music player. At BB I bought a sleeve for me netbook which I plan to carry and use in the skool. Out of sheer luck managed a good deal on the sleeve, I was happy.

As soon as we started shopping in Walmart, we heard the announcement that the TC will be shutting down in 15 minutes. Thus we could not shop well but we ended up buying a set of wine glasses and other glasses with a set of frying pans. Kin was so excited about the glasses that I bought cola and planned a party for two. We came home and I made salsa for nachos, we had an expired packed of chips and Kin was way too fussy about them but in the end he ended up eating them. We inaugurated the glasses over Social Network and Inception back to back. It was fun till Malli joined us and I kind of got uncomfortable and thus that drove me to writing. Finally, this was another day which kind of went well. Looking forward to Boo`s visit to the city, planning to have him over for dinner. Oh yes, Skool reopens in four days, really looking forward to this semester. 

Girls day out!

It all began right on time, well slightly by IST but it was all good. I met Viv`s at the TC. I had checked weather update before leaving the house and it said -15 but then me being me, I left with moderate precautions that is without a hat and a scarf. My face and ears were numb in that 15 minutes of walk. I was sh**t scared about the day after that experience since we were suppose to walk in and out of stores the whole day. We met Nash at VicP and then the trio headed to the destination of the day the much talked about Orfus road.

OR is nothing great. The girls shopped a bit and thanks to Viv`s I picked up a pair of jeans for ten bucks. The whole walking in the cold without food and water was a bit challenging and thus we ended up in Yorkdale mall. Girls did Toony Tuesday and again me being me I ended up spending six more bucks on Chinese food. We were in the mall till Viv`s shopping bug came to rest, Nash was too tired and fed up with the whole tiring shopping spree that she left a couple of hours early before we both left. I wanted to go for a movie thus showed a keen interest of parting ways at Ward but then Viv`s tagged along for drug mart. Ultimately my movie bug was rested by the hour spent in the drug mart. Boo called while I was in the drug mart with a news of he visiting the city, which kinda immediately shot my mood to cloud number nine. Mind you, I actually live for that day when he`ll be in the same city as I am, since my definition of fun life is incomplete without him. However, I felt bad when he told me the real reason behind his sudden visit. His maternal grandpa had passed away, may his soul rest in peace.

When I came home, Malli was waiting for me. We chatted a bit, Kin had survived the day on all the leftovers from the fridge and thus I had too cook for myself since there were no more leftovers left in the fridge. I made upma for Malli and myself. We watched The debt over popcorns. It was a day well spent. Oh it was my Veeraa`s b`day and I could not wish her. My love and blessings are always with my girl but as you know me I am slowly detaching myself from a lot of emotional attachments off late.

when dream comes true with closed eyes!

Neh, I have not gone lunatic. I did sleep away the whole of second day of the year. After last nights rolling in the empty bed I was up till late this morning. Viv's did call me but I had surrendered to Hypnos by then. I had texted her to postpone the day's plan to 'morrow and she readily agreed. My girlfriends are really nice.

This afternoon-
I was with Mashush, I think she took me to some consultant's office where she ''Worked''. Next I remember of volunteering for the same consultant. One odd afternoon, a typical 'Marathi maanus' walked into the office. He looked very ordinary. He sat infront of Mashush and he was asking for an assistant for himself to be hired via the consultants. I tried my 'Marathi' on him and we did click. Mashush being herself, she was least bothered. After the initial round of conversation with 'BHAU' I learnt that he was looking for basic assistance and he was willing to pay good money. Marathi employer in maple land was so thrilling that I asked Mashush if I could join him. Mashush checked with her boss and they were more than happy to let me go ;) They were earning commission of course and I was no value add to their business. My mind was blown away when I saw the offer of INR 12L per annum to be this guy's assitant. Not sure why I saw the money in INR though! I immediately did the conversion and I was quite content to receive $ 2000 monthly. Me being me I asked Bhau if he was okay hiring me and I wanted to impress him with my accolades that he's getting a great bargain  for assistant. Bhau wasn't interested in knowing my details he just told me that he has got the skills of identifying 'Go Getters'.

Next, I remember walking out of a parliament kind of a building with bhau and a typical rich Marathi lady joined us. She was bhau's better half and she pointed towards a peacock logo that was the company that the duo owned, they provided logistics and security to the VIPs. They were a multinational company serving in  six different nations, Canada being one of them. After the day one exploring the empire with Bhau and Vahini, I realised that I have landed in my dream job. I felt exactly how Figo feels about his existing job. Before I left for the Bhau informed me that I don't have to pay for my rent, food and Ttc pass now on since I can move in the company apartment, with a chauffeur driven car and meals with Bhau and family (like really?). He also asked why was I pursuing the diploma was I really keen on studying or PR. After my answer he told me that I don't have to waste baapoo's hard-earned money any more my PR papers shall arrive in a month's time. In short Bhau offered me everything that I want at this juncture of me life.

I was too sad to leave the current place but my dreams meant more than the emotions thus I parted my ways. Kin was left bamboozled. I somehow always was aware that it was just a dream since it was too good to be real.

Contagious like crazy!

As much as the title seems infectious... It's more about my craze of the celluloid. The first official day of the year was all about movies for me. I downed four movies today Polar express, Don 2, Contagion(again) and Like Crazy. All the four movies were nice, different genre and well made. I was really swooped by Don 2 since I had no expectations from it since it was the just another SRK flick but it is really brilliantly made. 

Started the new year on a sweet note with 'chahaa ani paav' it was after ages and I missed being with my crazy bunch. The only thing that I cooked today was Sheera 'coz thats kind of family tradition that we do follow. Surprisingly it turned out really good, just like aaji's which is kind of an achievement especially since the key ingredients were Canadian ;)

Looking forward to tomorrow(today technically), it's a girls day out. I like hanging out with Viv's and Nash. Kin's totally gleed, he's one crazy weirdo. I miss boo and so do I miss baapoo. My Leos are my weakness. Spoke briefly with Louie, she's all dreaming of my visit, it's always heart warming to speak to her. 

I should crash down now, since I have a long day ahead of me and I don't want to keep the girls waiting.

Happy New Year 2012!

Another year that has gone by 2011. A lot has been achieved what was decided and a lot of dreams yet to be fulfilled. On and on it was one of the most fruitful years of my life. There's so much positive this year that this years balance sheet looks unbalanced with lots of credit (I learned and topped accounts this year, no?)

I thank you for being my major support this year. You have been my strength, I hope to live up to every expectation of yours even though sometimes they are bit too much for my fragile wings but I am sure I'll pull it off well. With the present support of yours you have erased all the memories of the tough times that you have put me through and I am glad that we have arrived at this beautiful milestone in our relation. You are that crippled and most sensitive piece of my heart sometimes you do cheer and sometimes you do give me the worst of all heartaches. It's okay, without you I wouldn't be what I am today and thank you for making me feel selfless at times without you I am a BIG mass of selfishness.

You're my best friend and you have been there for most of the thick and thins of my life. This year we had our differences and we had our moments. We met for a while and we parted our ways for a while, like you I also wish to wake up in 2013 to be with you one more time. I thank you all for being my friends and family for all those warm and light moments of 2011 which have acquired a full shelf in my memory lane. Thank you for being the sane, noble, friendly and cordial house mate irrespective of all the phony, corny and immature stuff that you bring along. Thank you all for some of the best moments of the skool, you all are a fun gang to hang out with. Thank you for being that family away from home, I am way too scared to lose any one of you three. I see emotions of an immediate family member in each one of you for me and trust me that means the world to me. You all are really special.

I miss you. I really do, I wish to jump back time and get things straightened up a bit but nothing can be done. May be it's really too late and we messed it up big time. At least we did something BIG even if it was a mess up. Ending my post and 2011 on a funny note called 'BIG CHICKEN' this word makes laugh every time I or somebody else says it :)

Insomnia hits one more time!

Random Thought:
"Sometimes when too much of anything starts adversely affecting the deal then letting go is the best solution."

Officially on break from school but life's too domesticated that nothing's happening. I have fcuked the routine one more time and have to get back back to normal routine asap. Liking the changes in the atmosphere and the one's within. I hate the nice me who kinda is way too gullible but the croocked me is kinda way too kewl. Good in fact great Chrstmas, million times better than the Diwali. I miss baapoo the most, I really love my old man sometimes more than his once upon a time better half. I just long to spend a weekend with with them which will be very soon and I am really looking forward to it, infact I have started with me shopping already! ;)

Finances have been drastically improved, this one I really owe to me old man and his continious support. I am glad that he's been the nicest father when I list expected him to be. Me extra niceness with the family kinda leaves me thinking but in the end it's all good they all deserved to be treated well. I share this special bond with the three members that I just wish it to last for a while before I officially part my ways. I like being selfish and shrewd with this one, since he's totally worth it especially with that corny accent, unnecessary greed and being the smarty pants wherever we go. I miss thee but I am too scared to express these days 'coz the more I did the more ineffective it felt.  Thy art happy in your own little part of the world and me in mine and the two can't run parallel in harmony at least not at the moment. I wish you wouldn't have been such a disaster to friendship and for a moment I actually thought that we could be great friends and then you went around playing the back stabbing games of yours and thus killed it for me. :(

Thanks for being so informal and sweetly dumb that I felt a step closer to you. I deeply feel for you hope you do the magic trick for me. Nonetheless I empathise with you for what you've gone through and I salute your courage I think you did a neat job of masking your sorrows. Sadly, our eyes were way too curious and we got what we didn't anticipate. We do respect you and your secret will be safe with us. I hate your increasing proximity towards me, especially when you're not so nice with your own folks and always going out of your way for me. I don't want this leading to any misunderstandings which could shake my comfort zone but there's not much I can do about it. I need this special attention that I am getting from you. :)

After a very long time...

I know that it's been a very long time since I have written anything was on a break! This is my first entry from my kinda smart phone from the first world. All's well so far and I hope it stays the same :-)

Today Zimbo kinda got me surprised by taking the gang home for Eid dinner. The wifey's very warm and a great hostess and of course no words for Zimbo. I am glad to have a friend like him around. Pink's kinda an embarrasement at times especially with people around. I am glad for her too, annoyingly sweet biatch she is.

Nikki's kinda the blessing in me life right now especially since booboobear is miles away. The new place is insanely beautiful and I am loving it here as nobody's business. Thank you uparwale for all my bunch of people who are getting closer day by day.

Until the last minute!

I know I've been away for a while and I missed out on putting up many incidents worthy enough to be a part of my memory lane. Still, I'll try my level best to sum it up all in one post. I am in a whole new world, experiences of which are reserved for a different post.

First thing first, bapu started spending 'a lot'of time around. It wasn't pleasant though,'coz I would always feel being enslaved for editing his contacts and wallpapers. We also had a bit of a tiff because of that but it's all okay now. It was bapu's b'day, I had a fall out with maa at Saroj's and I had stormed out without her. It was absolutely her mistake so everything was okay at home when she came back on her own. Bapu did visit late in the evening and we had a decent b'day celebrations for him. Next day we hosted a Satyanarayan Pooja, which went extremely well until the late night tiff with bapu happened. That was kinda the mood spoiler but then Bammi was just a skype call away and a long talk with him helped immensely.

Maa's b'day was different, we had a real blast of our own. We went to Ashoka, the great sizzler fiasco happened but it didn't bother much and in the end all went well. Next, day I went to Yahba's and had some real nice time there with all those people that I am not particularly fond of. I was really touched by their hospitality and it did mean a lot me. My packing was delayed till last moment, 'coz my clothes were not ready.  One of the cons of being a realist, frugal gal.

On the last day, I was down with upset tummy. Bapu came while we were packing my stuff. As usual he did lose his cool on both maa and I. I had some last minute things to settle, like threading. I somehow managed to squeeze in my requirements. Bapu created mini scenes in front of the visitors which was very humiliating and upsetting. As usual bapu kept rushing for early departure. I forgot my medicated shampoo and jacket :( My luggage looked way more than the limit, thus bapu got yet another chance of our public humiliation. Thanks to loafer's driving us to railway station bapu got back to sane mode and was nice to maa  and me.

With the help of porters we managed to get my stuff in our designated seats in the train. Just before the train left we were informed that our tickets were upgraded. Under normal circumstances we would have jumped with joy but looking at the luggage we declined the order. Finally TC intervened and helped us with shifting of luggage and we were happy campers in our new and better seats. We all took this up-gradation as a positive sign from the 'upparwala'. Maa and I were very apprehensive with bapu's decision of getting down at Thane at AhkerusM's place. Afterall, this was the very first interaction of maa's family with bapu, post the breaking of 'HIS' news.

Things went real smooth at AhkerusM's. They all were extremely nice. DidiM n Kaka were real great help with the money. Bammi's bapu was too sweet and nice with the exchange. I wish I could have spent more time with DidiM and ChotiM. Bapu did take me out and went by my will and was also very nice to me. We had so much fun on 'Mundool'. His frugality left both my feet corned but thats all okay since we had some real great father daughter time. When we reached home, almost at the midnight, it was nice catching up with Vrushu an her baby. I did spend some good time with the family.

Next day, was the 'the day'. I was nervous, hyper and craving for some time alone with maa. Unfortunately, I did not get a single moment with her. At lunch, Figo showed up with his parent. As usual it was one of those, his five minutes VIP visits. I really wish, none of the three would have showed up but then it's okay. I  can never forget the the heightened emotions in the living room just before I bid my final good byes to my family. I never expected bapu to cry so loud. I did hug him hard and had cried for some good time. It was the most difficult leaving him, worse than maa. I miss my folks like crazy, thanks to Public mobile they are just a call away...

At first the way to the airport looked pleasant, but then in the end we did get stuck in the traffic jam. Though we were before time on the airport. Though we were expecting some more family members at the airport, but I was too anxious about the whole luggage thing that I rushed for the airport formalities. To our surprise everything that I carried with me was well under the limits and my immigration formalities were also over sooner than expected. Fortunately I managed to shake hands with almost everyone who did make it on the airport but thats about it. I still long for that one last hug that I did not get. I did carry my cell phone so I was able t speak with my folks till my final flight from Delhi.

I had a good flight with Air India. The food was good and I was lucky with all the company that i got. It was just too cold for me and I did miss my black jacket from home. I did miss the warmth of my folks more.
I am hooked on to this song by drake:

Divine Intervention : Lord Venkateshwara!

Ever since I started figuring out stuff on my own, I always wanted to visit Tirupati/Tirumala Devasthanam. DidiM, BalaM and AhkerusM regularly visit but none of them could be of any help to me. About six months ago, during a family vacation in Kerala I wished to visit TTD for my 25th anniversary and the topic was out of my mind by the time we were back home. Ever since Bapu's agreement to the whole 'study-abroad' thing I had conceived the whole 'Thailand' dream for my 25th and was very serious about it too. In the middle of my 'study-abroad' plans there came a time when things got too tough and the whole thing started appearing impossible. In a moment of despair I had booked maa n me to a train for Tirupati for 'the day' but I had to cancel that ticket immediately since there were no options available for the return journey then.

Things got moving and once again I was back on my 'Thai' plans. As per my planning I was expected to get maa's and mine passport 15 days prior to 'the day', the consultant goofed up and thus my 'Thai' plans were screwed. While I was looking out for some local escape routes, BalaM announced his visit with no date of return. I was stuck with no options but to wait patiently for his departure. Finally after a week his departure was finalized, three days before 'the day'. While booking his ticket I just tried my luck with TTD tour for maa, poopoo and me. This time I could book tickets for both ways, wait listed though! I booked us for a 3 days trip to TTD and kinda kept it a surprise for maa since I wanted to avoid the whole 'our kinda' discussion. I had kept a day's breathing space for us post BalaM's departure before our tour.

BalaM's departure was delayed because his ticket was wait listed till the last moment and thus his departure plans got hazy. We couldn't leave till he was around and thus I had to break my silence on the whole 'surprise' thing. Thankfully there weren't many discussions around the whole deal and BalaM left the next evening, leaving no time to catch our breath. Our tickets were still wait listed and none of us wished to travel without reservation. When I came back after dropping him to the station, maa raised the whole itinerary thing and what if things aren't favorable doubts of hers. I had no certain answers to any of her queries but one, ''have left it to Lord Venkateshwara, if he has called for us then he shall take care of our trip. Let us take our reservation status as his signal, if they don't get confirmed then he doesn't wish to see us and our etickets will get canceled automatically!" Next minute I logged on to check our PNR status and to our surprise our tickets were confirmed.

Our train was scheduled for 3:30 pm and thus after our BAU(Bickering As Usual) we left home at 2:30 pm. I don't remember a single incident of train delays in my life so far so none of us bothered to inquire with IR before leaving from home. As soon as we reached the station, we learnt that the train was delayed by two hours. There was no point going home and coming back since it would have taken us one hour to commute in total and about 200/-. I had not slept on the previous night so I decided to take a nap on one of the benches on the platform.

I woke up in like 5 hours only to see tired and long faces of maa and poopoo. Poor guys had survived for 5 hours on that platform, while I rested. So, apparently the train was delayed by 6 hours and my comrades were almost about to give up. I suggested a quick dinner at Comesum, we had packed lotsa stuff from home and we bought malai Kulfi from the vendor out of courtesy. The jolly dinner boosted zeal in maa and poopoo, they were good to continue waiting at least for next couple of hours. By the time we finished our meal and dessert, we heard arrival announcement for our train. After a lot of confusion and crazy running around we managed to board our train.

The compartment was full of men it did not appear worrisome and honestly we did not face any struggles during our 18 hours of journey. Poopoo and I had literally invaded the window seats. We reached Tirupati  station at about 4 pm, whereas we were supposed to reach at 10 am. As soon as we got down, I started inquiring at random places for 'hows' and 'whats' of the destination. Post my terrible bargaining shots we reached TTD Srinivasam by 4.30. After sitting in a non moving que for little over 45 minutes I started panicking out since I was responsible for two other lives who kinda were helpless due to their lack of knowledge of English. I somehow 'pattaoed' the guard and bargained his commission charges from 500/- to 100/-. As soon as I was about to pay him money for special arrangements for one AC room, the que started moving and I got lucky with one nice AC room without any commission.  :p

After some rest and bathing we were ready to head out, since it was 'the day' maa insisted on a fancy place for dinner. In stead I took them to the roadside 'dosa on thelas' place and ordered for three masala dosas. By the time I got couple of water bottles (less than 5 minutes) maa and poopoo were holding their respective dosas. I signaled them to eat, to both their surprises, it was indeed one of the best dosas both of them had eaten. I kinda louved the twinkle in poopoo's eyes. After finishing our firsts Poopoo and I shared another dosa. Maa and I sipped some steaming sips of some amazing tea. Finally around 7.30 pm we boarded a bus to Tirumala since we were very keen on making 'the day' some extra very 'special'. The bus was kinda funny, since apart from three of us there was only an elderly couple in the whole bus, it had a lady conductor and the driver would stop at various eateries and the conductor would pick up food and together they would eat in the bus.

I was nauseated on my way up since it was a ghat road and my dosa was also rising up, the last thing I wanted to do was to throw up, so I kept my eyes closed throughout the journey. When we reached up many people including the security guards started misguiding us, most but a few insisted on purchase of special 300/- special darshan tickets. There were few true and godsend folks who guided us to a que for free darshanam. After walking for a little over an hour from the bus station we reached a hallway. Devotees had laid down groundsheets and were getting comfortable to sleep/rest. Initially it was a bizarre position, nobody understood us and we had no plans of spending the night in a communal hallway when we had paid a grand for our room in Tirupati. Maa was kinda losing her patience so she engaged poopoo to run some errands and bought some munchings from a vendor. It was the vendor, who explained me the whole thing, apparently it was going to take us a little over 2 hours of waiting in that hallway and then an hours time in the que for the darshanam, on our way to dashanam we could buy prasadam laddoos by paying 20/- for 2 laddoos per head. Much relieved with the information all three of us dozed off within minutes.

At around 11.15 pm on 'the day' I woke up to a divine Conch sound and woke maa and poopoo too. Since we were amongst some of the early risers we could skip and run a huge distance and finally at around 11.59 pm I was in front of Lord Venkateshwara's idol for little over 90 seconds. I literally concluded 'the day' in front of the deity and I couldn't think of a better way of making it one of the most memorable expeiences of my lifetime. The journey that followed this whole experience  was equally miraculous/coincidental and interesting. We met a godsend angel who took us for the all temple darshanam tour organised by the devasthanam, followed by the ISKON temple darshanam and miraculous confimation of the return journey tickets.

I feel special, at times elite, smarter than many others but this time I felt blessed. The whole tour thickned my belief of existence of a stronger governing force. This definitely doesn't make me quit my chores and sit in front of an idol for hours or give up on every other ting that I enjoy and is considered as 'ill or evil' by my religion.
My take out, ''Be true to thine own self!''

P.S. Yes it did rain on 'the day'! :)

25!

Turned 25 a week ago!

It was the first ever b'day without cake.
For the first time there were no so called "celebrations".
The whole 'Tirupati darshan' phenomenon made it very simple, spiritual and divine.
I was responsible for AtoZ of the total 3 days time off for the three of us and I think I did a commendable job at managing stuff, small incidences of losing my cool could have been avoided though.
I did not wish Oge and honestly did not even think of him, "jo hota hain, acche ke liye hi hota hai!"
Bammi was the first one to wish and Bapu was the last(I missed many of his calls, so completely my fault).
I have reduced my circle of influence to the minimum possible radius.
Its more of 'SELF' now and less of 'OTHERS'.
Maa still is the center of my life and I never will try to outgrow that.
Bapu seems to come closer and I have no feelings about it.
I am looking forward to next 12 months, studies and lotsa fun time out and away.
I hope my time in ON will be 'thik-thak' without Bammi, I know I am gonna miss him like crazy but thats kinda need of time.
I must fair well in following areas before my next b'day:
Weight loss
Studies
Driving
Swimming
Foreign language (French)

lost in search of a fcuking apt _________!

Lost in search of a fcuking apt TITLE. So many things on me mind, not sure which is more important and which is less. Here I go...
BalaM is finally gone from our's. His departure was dramatic three train tickets and many bike rides later finally he's off. He's one heck of a guy, it will be interesting if I could ever study the functioning of his brain as a psych student.
Train tickets have been booked for Bapu and us separately also the whole farewell thing has been sorted out at least I hope so.
Ate loadsa non veg in these couple of days, enjoyed cooking lamb ribs and mutton mince(kheema).
Window shopped in a computer store and found out some really interesting stuff to be procured before I leave. Also, bought a decent iball webcam.
Photocopied most of my stuff and kept the necessary documents with maa.
Balanced out one year's track record and quite satisfied with my work.
I am worried for my basic shopping, since bapu's pooling money for my expenses out there. He has put a no spending clause on the whole deal and that's very uncomfortable.
Its ABC's anniversary today and I am happy with my personalized gift :)

check list(ed)!

Have booked my flight ticket for 2nd Aug.
Have booked maa's and mine rail ticket, haven't spoken to bapu yet but if he insists then will book him for some other train.
Spending my 25th b'day at Tirupti, nothing can be more special than getting blessings from the almighty.

BalaM will be leaving morrow night and thus I'll be celebrating with wine :P.. not his departure but the formal approval on my plans of a new begining.
I have literally fried BalaM's brains with BhejaFry 1 n BhejaFry 2. I am glad that he liked it, poor thing had not seen a movie since 2003.
It's kinda weird that I am never hungry and sleepy these days, unlike during the wait.
Planning to install a web cam for my desktop and will give it to maa, my laptop to bapu and maa's desktop to poopoo.
Cleaning my computers, hard drives since they won't be mine soon.
Right now mind is at a very peaceful disposition. Things are moving but at a very soothing pace.
Happy :)

Simple and real ''Taryanche Bet''...

Watched a Marathi movie after months. Was it worth the wait?
Yes absolutely, it was worth all the wait. ''Taryanche bet'' is a simple and real story. It is a very very well made movie. It is Balaji's first venture in Marathi cinema business and must say it was an excellent choice of story to start off. Sachin Khedekar is brilliant in his role as always child artist Ishan Tambe is the real surprise package. I remember watching him on Zee Marathi's daily soap ''Shubhamkaroti''. Rest of the other supporting cast is equally good. Kiran Yadnyopavi's direction is worth mentioning and so is Saurabh Bhave's story. The best thing about this movie is that it is very real and thus all of us can relate to some or the other incident. The music should have been better, especially to attract larger group of audiences. There are no miracles, no mishaps and no larger than life circumstances. There are lots of light moments and some moments emotional enough to make you think if not cry.

All in all ''Taryanche bet'' is a must watch for all those who cherish Marathi cinema. It sure will take you to the memory lane and will leave you with nostalgia. 

Stamped!

Finally!!!

The wait is over and thankfully on a very positive note.
My passport has been stamped by the embassy and it has been received by the consultant, I am yet to see it with my eyes though.
I am getting, all that i always dreamed of and thankfully maa and bapu are with me on this whole thing.
I couldn't celebrate since BalaM is at home and OnH's death.
The wine bottle is still waiting for me to open it, I think I'll just do it anyways.
I am kinda nervous 'coz I'll have either one of my parents sending me off at Mumbai airport.
The feeling is yet to sink in me since I am not ''overjoyed'' about my planning.
Bammi's the only person who has been constantly reinforcing the magnitude of the day's development.
Finally, Bapu's agreed for 12K additional also for my preponing the whole movement by a month's time.
Had taken BalaM for a long ride and then for a lime soda but my heart wasn't into it.
OnH's death had resurfaced and had created an issue in the family.
Did cook chicken biryani and it turned out really well.
Did miss out on ctching Cars 2 first day, first show but will watch it some other time.
Finally I am glad that God has been kind enough to set me free, just the way I wanted to!

This old song fits apt to my current state of mind... Happy :)

Siblings...

Maa n BalaM :D

They love each other but they hardly realise it. They never express their feelings that doesn't mean that there are none. I am new to this phenomenon about siblings since I don't have any but I am learning. BalaM is here with us and I have observed so many nice changes in Maa. Just to set the records straight, maa n her siblings are not the loud expressive types but more of love to keep it low types. All are very practical and materialistic when it comes to transactions. It's fun to be around BalaM when he's free and it's kinda emotional to be around DidiM, I enjoy both the feelings and otherwise. So, Maa's all geared to be an excellent hostess, which she always is but this time it's little more than normal. I like the way Maa has told me all li'l li'l things about their childhood. I think from my generation, I am the most learned about the last generation of my maternal history. I know almost all random stories of Maa and her siblings. Anyways, even though Maa pretends not being bothered, she still cares and thus today's food was awesome!

Morning was full of M's business expansions, profits, settings and the 'dream-home' that I have been hearing for forever now. Finally, I managed to corner myself aside and caught on some sleep. I woke up in the evening to find out that internet was down. I just anted to check on the status of my application thus I tweaked both hardware and software of our broadband connection. Internet resumed by fluke and I am getting a download speed of 500 kb/ps. Anyways, its a part of daily routine now to check on the application status. It was the fourth day since 20th and I wasn't expecting any miracles since I was anticipating the official SLA of 10 working days . No buzz here but the passport has been dispatched, I haven't received any call though! Anything can happen but I am hoping that I get through. I am glad that things have got over sooner than expected and my fingers are crossed for a positive news.

Deck(ed)!

BalaM is visiting, he arrived this morning with poopoo. I had promised him that I would receive them at the station so I had kept me awake the whole night and was right on time, very unlike me, eh? We had a miscommunication last night, I had hinted him to get down at Ajni rather than the main station. Since this was his first time to get down at Ajni, I wanted to confirm if he was game? I started buzzing him from 5am but bledy his phone was switched off. Finally I left home at 5.30, maa called while I was just about to start my bike that he is getting down at Ajni!

Internet was down for past two days. Didn’t miss much except when I had to check the whereabouts of my visa application. Bammi wasn’t reachable and Ashu couldn’t help, in desperation blew all my talktime balance on gprs, only to find out the f**k up done by the consultant. No internet and no mood for any torrent based entertainment drove me to pick up ‘Freakonomics’, half done but taking it slow now since I am back to broadband. Maa and I played kitty and rummy after ages. It was so much fun to see her wild competitiveness. That woman can’t accept defeat it was fun to watch her win her defeats were even more fun and dramatic.  I often cheated on purpose just to make her mad. I am too fed up of fighting over food so daily I am cooking religiously. My garlic tomato trick is a success, it tastes so well that maa has literally pushed her lunch from 12pm to 4pm. Tried my hands on the chariot special chocolate smoothie and succeeded too. Printed some of the good clicks and now presenting a framed version to whomsoever it belongs to. The joy of giving, nothing can beat that and by the way I hate receiving!

My bank loan papers were finally ready on 1^st June after so much of running around the whole of May. Even after submitting every damn paper related to me on the face of Earth. My visa application has been submitted on 20^th June. The Consultant was simply sitting on it, until I inquired. On my inquiry the excuse given for the delay was so silly that any poor dog would have sniffed suspicion. This whole thing has killed my Thailand plans. My 31^st July departure has been postponed to 3^rd August now, since the airfare has shot up like crazy. Bledy morons!!!  They don’t even realize that they are dealing people’s careers and hard earned money. 

(un)necessary (over)conversation!

Initiated new communications and I am not feeling right about that. I hate to get dragged in other’s affairs yet I have fallen prey to my curiosity one more time.  I hate this whole need of validations over rubbish issues.  I hate the triumph of correct assessment and hate the attention drawn by the whole bragging. In the end like I always say one can fool others but can’t fool self.

The only satisfactory outcome from the whole conversation was when Udnav T commended maa’s efforts of raising a decent human being. I feel blessed with my ability of gauging people and striking an engaging conversation. I only wish that I could use my ability to bring out best in people rather than being the vent machine or confession box.

Each moment somebody or the other is washing their dirty linen in public. I don’t wish to be the witness and if I have to see it I hope that I don’t contribute in any way. I think I am at a blissful disposition with the whole self dependency mindset.  I made a mistake and I shall never repeat the same. Another thing that’s bugging me is for ditching a friend’s mother. In my defense I am not in the correct mindset. I am also not comfortable with the whole out of proportion affection. This whole deal with excessive emotions compels me to judge people and relations and honestly this one failed as per my assessment. Though as per the law of quid pro quo I have given more than received. I am not very proud to buy happiness but what the hell, I am a realist and I give what’s required. I don’t put my emotions on gamble. I admit that this is selfish but this is the only and the ultimate way to survive that I have learned. I am out there, my resources and my help are accessible but that’s the end of it. I totally believe in cherishing the moment while it lasts, I never think about the molasses while enjoying the cane juice!

finally undeclared!

Undeclared!

 Done watching Undeclared! It was fun to see Jay Baruchel, Seth Rogen and Amy Poehler like a generation younger. It was kinda an extended 'American Pie' movie but the lesser dirty n funnier version. It felt more realistic than the AP flicks. Charlie Hunnam was a hottie and rest of the others were cuties. On an on it’s definitely a good contender for my favorite sitcoms list, not the addictive types though!

Spoke to Eww yesterday, she seemed disturbed hope things do move real quickly for her. I wasn’t comfortable probing into her issues ‘coz I am scared to use my ‘ITYS-meter’( I Told You So).   Well, lets just say that the girl is not in for any bad surprises in the future and may God bless her.

Cuz had called for some career advise and since I had no idea on what so ever about NAVY I had called EP.  It’s always nice to speak to her. I miss her a lot. I have spent some of my best times with her.  Today, I am much better than yesterday, OnH isn’t haunting anymore. It rained this evening, I guess that was OL’s and PB's intimation that they had found him in the clouds!