Marathi new year - Gudi Padwa!

I have loads to look up to and go through this year. I don't know whats in store for me, eh! I pray to the almighty for courage, strength and patience for easy passage through all the odds of life. I also ask for humble satiety of all the good and joyous things of life. 

I have left the well-being of my nest and my folks on him and I am sure he'll be the best at it, since he has always been the best! May this year bring peace, humility, progress, prosperity, health an happiness to each and everyone!

Happy New Year 2011...

INDIA: We are the world champions!!! ICC World Cup 2011

Yayyyy... we did it, we are the champions!!!!!


If you recall my last post 'now or never', I had pledged not to follow Cricket if India loses in WC 2011. Well, I won't have to give up Cricket now because men in blue are the new ICC WC 2011 champions... 


As a die hard cricket fan it was a long long wait for me, wait of the lifetime actually, eh? yeah because I wasn't born when Kapil Dev and team had lifted the bad baby(WC Trophy) in 1983. It's euphoria everywhere, and why shouldn't it be? We are a nation of 1.21 billion people and Cricket is our religion, if you cut open our veins you'll see cricket flowing with every RBC. Every li'l boy from almost every corner of the country aspires to be Sachin Tendulkar one day!


This is most probably my last WC in India and I wished, hoped and prayed for it more than ever. All of us have an ultimate secret wishlist, things before we die. I am happy to strike out one wish from my wishlist. What more to say, HaPpY is what I am...


India played exceptionally well in this tournament, except the game against England and SA they were killers.. the real terminators. This championship hasn't come by fluke, MSD and his brigade have really worked hard to dominate international cricket. This team has an excellent mix of experience and enthusiasm (Hosh ke saath Josh). They are matured, responsible and are chasing same goal. This team is not dependent on any one particular match-winner. Every single player is competent enough in coming ahead and rising  for the occasion. This team is not overconfident and doesn't mind experimenting. They have world's best batting order but this doesn't hold them from diving hard to save opponent team's boundaries. 'Catches win matches!' seems to be a part of their DNA. Not deadly but decent match winning bowling what else is the formula for world champions?


All in all, this was an excellent tournament for team India. It was a team effort, they are the best team in cricket world for sure an they really deserved the title! 


Every victory was followed by this brilliant Doordashan clipping...

My daughter from next life!

Title seems creepy and mysterious, eh? I know that it's not at all the typical of me to speak about things beyond this life as I really don't know and don't care about what after this life scenario...

"You know what? I pray to the almighty that in my next life I should be born as your daughter. I should be twice as difficult as you are to me!" I remember Maa telling me this, ever since I was like 4 yrs old. Initially she would say it every time I would be mischievous or stubborn and I would make faces. As I grew up mostly in my teenage, every attempt of mine to be a rebel was counterattacked by these lines and I would hate it to the core. Couple of years ago I heard these lines on my mistakes where they just brought tears in my eyes...

Today, I heard them again but the context was totally different. We were arguing over something silly just for fun. Both of us were looking at each other  to see who laughs first and the other one automatically wins the argument.  Maa laughed first and I won, she came and hugged me from behind while I was reorganizing  my farm. I sensed Maa's deep, unconditioned love, her pain that she will miss me like anything when I'll be gone. I really find these lines very amusing that they have appeared different and have lead to different emotions at different point of time in my life...

What if I'll be blessed with next life as a woman? What will it be like to be Maa's Maa? You know what I have no clue at all but I know one thing for sure that I'll be the happiest and the luckiest to have Maa around me in every life irrespective of our relation.


Kailas Kher's this composition had brought tears in my eyes when I had heard this song for the fist time, while watching Dasvidaniya!

I had also cried buckets, while watching Tare zameen par when this song was playing in the background...

mad mad mad mad mad LOVE!!!!

Our love is volatile, chemical,

Anything but typical ...

I want you badly,

I love you madly...

To begin with, the very first frame of mad love will give you 'How I Met Your Mother' feel. The feeling continues throughout the season so far. Having said so, Mad Love is not a bad or an exact copy of HIMYM. Mad love is a good plot with it's nice storyline, however it has starking resemblance with HIMYM in certain frames.

Tylar Labine is fantastic as Larry Munsch, again Larry's character somewhat resembles HIMYM's Barney Stinson played brilliantly by NPH. Ever since American Pie series I like Jason Biggs and he is absolutely adorable as Ben Parr, his charcter has shades of HIMYM's Ted Mosby played by Josh Radnor. Judy Greer's portrayal of Connie Grabowski is fresh and thankfully different from any particular lead character from HIMYM. Sarah Chalke, HMIYM's Stella plays Kate Swanson in Mad Love. If I had to pick anyone between Kate and Stella, I would pick Kate not because of Sarah's acting proficiency but because of the characterization.

The story is of four New Yorker's in their thirties, all in search of love. Ben and Kate find love in each and Larry and Connie detest each other from the very first meeting. Larry and Connie unwillingly get  tagged along with their best friends who are a couple now. Slowly, you do see a budding chemistry between the two but it's too early to expect any major happenings between C n L. If you are a HIMYM  fan then I am sure you'll like Mad Love and even if you don't like HIMYM you may just like Mad Love for all the things that are different from HIMYM.  In any case Mad Love is for all sitcom, romcom lovers, eh?

All in all, Mad Love is sweet, funny and romantic(my definition of perfect partner). It is inspired from HIMYM for sure. 22 minutes of pure enjoyment, so a MUST WATCH I would say...

'Fanta'stic Ad!

Nazar phiki, chashma colorful
Duniya dikhe orange wonderful
Naughty naughty bubble
Har bubble mein hai maza double
Double double, double double
Chuski jo le manwa
'Fanta'stic ho jaayeeee....

Fanta's latest ad for the Indian markets is really really appreciable... Can't help myself from posting this one!

so vile :(

Why me? why why why???

It's worst when your mindset suddenly shifts from absolute neutral to the negative extreme.

I have conquered all of my addictions in life except one,eh! I always torture myself with the ongoing yo-yo effect of my addiction. The whole thing had always been unrealistic, way too heavy for my kitty and absolutely hazardous to both my mental and physical well being.

It was a casual chance that I took in life. It was an experiment for the time being, successful results may have made it permanent but it was always meant to be temporary. I somehow always believed that I could always afford it and thats why I made it a part of my lifestyle. Initially I was just trying out stuff, needless to say it was fun and thats why I never realized that I had swapped places with my prey.

Every time I try to get over this addiction I end up hurting myself more. I have never been so helpless and miserable ever in my life. I hate to give my controls away. It's like chasing mirage. The worst part is that I know that it's hazardous, way out of my league and can't be true ever but still I want to reach for the moon on a new moon!!!

The mo' I think of it, the more I curse myself for getting involved. I am paying a huge ransom for an obsolete sadomasochism. I think, I kill my self esteem every time my thoughts involve my addiction. I am better without it and it kinda feels relieved to be a free bird. I will always regret this side of incorrigible me.

 In my head, two songs that are counter striking each other!

Isolation...

Aapla aapan karava vichaar taravaya paar bhava Sindhu!

Feeling very very indifferent at the same time too tempted to break free. Going through a tough time, never thought that things those I longed the most once upon a time will feel so suffocating. I think I am so frigging used to the fast, harsh, troublesome and lonely life that I find it difficult to enjoy/survive the slow, smooth, peaceful and easy life.

I received certain facts and figures with regards to my upcoming future, eh? It wasn't something that I had never anticipated in fact it was exactly the same that I had always imagined and was mentally prepared to deal with. The weaker, the lamer and the dependent types always follow the herd without any struggle for self. i can very well do that but thats not who I am. I derive immense pride and satisfaction from my struggles. It's the healthy stress that keeps adrenalin flowing for me. I love breaking my spine for my project at hand. All I am concerned and worried is for the upcoming formalities of the desired transition.

Things are getting uglier at the full stop. I have been transformed into a very selfish creature by the abstinence process. I am glad to be at this emotional quotient but kinda struggling to keep my temper in control. My wings yearn for flight, I need to be on my own anyhow and as soon as possible. I think I am at my best with strangers,eh! Yeah I don't have to pretend with strangers, I am not required to please them. I can be just my own selfish self and get away with maximum enjoyment without any regrets or resentments.

Right now I think Mellow Motif's version of lemon tree is more apt for me..

There is absolutely nothing on my mind right now... Absolutely no thoughts of  yesterday, today or tomorrow. Isolation!!! I think it's exactly what I chase now. 

Break up ke baad... Finally!!!

First thing first my first video both on f/b and on my blog!

Crazy clown hereafter referred as CC was flaunting his new Samsung dual sim phone in front of me. He was constantly bugging me with 'bayko bayko' a nerve wreaking number. I was so pissed that I was about to leave the room or perhaps the house. He guessed my irritation and switched to the following song. Initially there was chaos both in the background and in my mind. As the song progressed I started falling for it. I loved this song. I think this one will be in my collection forever just like Garva and others.

Ever since I am back from Mumbai this song is constantly on my mind... Unfortunately I am also hung on to bayko bayko... Stupid CC!

aloof...

Last night...

I was welcomed by some strangers, all middle aged males, in a remote small town. After brief introductions I realized that I was in Paa's territory. I was given an apartment to stay closer to him and I was sent to check on things if they were decent enough for me or not. All the men were friendly and were of Paa's league. I could noticeably see Paa's influence and dominance over them. They were cautious and courteous, way more than required. I was getting bothered by the constant help around me.  Soon, I started craving for solitude and wanted to get rid of them but I was kind of stuck!

I was sitting at a restaurant. It was again a new place, an unfamiliar one but the staff seemed to have known me. The place was warm and cozy, since there was no vacant table especially for a single customer the waiter guided me to a preoccupied table. There were two aunties and two children. I was in a mood for 'main aur meri tanhaayee' and hence was apprehensive about joining with strangers but waiter insisted and I had no choice so I joined the table half heartedly. As soon as I sat there, all the background noises were muted down and I started getting the feel of being the only customer in an elegant, fine dining place. It was like being in vacuum inside a glass bottle. I could see everything around but was not affected by the surroundings at all. I started interacting with the waiter and placed an order for chicken stake sizzler with garlic bbq sauce. It was back to normal, amidst of crowd when the waiter brought food for me, suddenly there were noises around. I was baffled and off my equilibrium when the waiter started describing the dish. I don't remember what he said except his suggestion that I should order 'angaare/ anguri kebabs' as a side dish. I politely declined as the dish itself was too much for me and It was too late to order the side dish. This place now looked so much like Pune's 'Vahuman Cafe'.

As I was feasting on my sizzler. I heard a familiar voice in the background. I turned my head and saw that enthupaplet was irritating rockstar. And as usual he was really bugged over something, it was kinda he wanted some peace of mind. I was so tempted to join them or at least let them know that I was also here but I restrained myself. I continued eating, was almost focussed on every single bite. EP spotted me while they were leaving, I simply excused by saying that I didn't realize that they were there. Rockstar said hello to me, he looked preoccupied. He exchanged a weird glance with EP and he left the place. EP also left in hurry behind him asking me to catch up at her place. I wrapped up my meal in a rush and I was outside on the road. I saw EP was walking behind rockstar and I started following the duo. It wasn't Pune roads and I was confused as hell. The scorching sun and the fight between the duo was killing me. EP and rockstar were arguing over something continuously and I was the mute follower. At one point I screamed in panic and they stopped, again they exchanged a vicious look and rockstar stormed out. He caught the first bus that stopped and he was gone. EP sat down on the road and held her face in her hands. I wanted to speak, I wanted to comfort her but I was so dumbstruck that I was staring at her like she was dead!

heat of perfection!

People eat to live but I live to eat!

I am not a perfect person but as far as the word food is concerned I am very particular about the taste and the hygiene. I am a decent cook and I have been cooking since I was 7. My food preference is very ordinary, I prefer simple yet delicious over any exotic and complex dish. I enjoy trying out new cuisines and recipes though.

I have been behaving extremely neurotic over cooking off late. I am kinda going through crave swings for meals. These days I am mostly hyper over the lack of perfection in cooking at home. As I mentioned I prefer simple food, I am also very particular about the taste, balance of flavors and hygiene. Unfortunately my taste buds have outgrown Maa's cooking. I often find lots of shortcomings in her way of dealing with ingredients in the kitchen. I have started backing off from meals just because they aren't the way I expect them to be!

I know, I am a lazy bone. I won't be pampered for long this way. Maa won't be around, I will long to see her. Somehow I don't feel the necessity of this pampering. I know that I am capable taking full controls of my life. My management skills may not be as refined as Maa's but I am some how content with my progress on my daily chores. I somehow sweat less negative emotions when I am in charge. I need Maa in every walk of life, not for her support but for the simple reason that she is Maa and I love her immensely.

As much as i want to hold these passing moments for long lasting effects. I also can't wait to be on my own. I need to make my life.. far far away from my nest, my kingdom. I love my folks and I hope to make them happy by carving a life different from the current one for all of us.

Cheerful...

Feeling unusually cheerful...

The break tuned out quite beneficial. It has got me closer to many of my set my objectives.
Started sleeping on the floor for direct benefits from  room cooler, however my back has started hurting in a very weird way.

Changed desktop background to this!

Tried and then made some simple, yet totally new and delicious recipes :) 

Mishti Doi...

It's past midnight and I am craving for mishti doi so much! My poor sweet tooth...arrggh!!!!!

Forlorn!

"Akele aaye the is duniya mein aur akele hi jayenge!"

We were born alone and we will die alone, is the simple translation of the above Hindi phrase. I have been feeling extremely low since last couple of days, mainly because I have started working towards flying away from my nest. My flight will be long and destination is miles away from my nest. My heart aches even thinking about leaving everything on aged wings. All my life I have been acting as stabilizer in ever withering nest of mine. I never knew, never cared if there was something beyond my nest.

Lately, I have started observing the changes in the world around. I have started listening to the voice within. I am forming my own opinions and deciding whats right and whats wrong for myself and for my nest. This in return has started resulting in conflicts, daily chaos, hourly arguments. Suddenly, I feel that my wings are stronger than the strength of my nest. The nest can't deal with my aspirations and thus my decision of this flight.

Ever since this awakening, this sense of self I have started feeling lonely. I don't know if my life so far will be evident in my future. I don't know if I will have routined, so called "normal" life. I don't know if I will find someone special or not? I don't know if I ever will trust somebody enough that I will build a nest of my own. My future is foggy but my present isn't pleasant too!

I feel tangled in the worry for my nest. I don't know its fate, once I fly away. I am not sure if it can survive a blow of wind? I know one thing for sure that whatever happens I won't be there to hold it together again. I am scared , after all in this whole world  this nest is the only thing thats my own, eh?

My worries are eating me inside out. This is so not me but the whole situation is beyond my control and I am leaving it to fate. I don't want to kill myself for something that I am totally helpless in.  I think the only thing that I can do is to make my life decent enough, that the warmth of my happiness and satisfaction gleams in this part of the world(my nest specially).

Image courtesy : lindabucklin.com & happydance.com.au

Nervous Nineties!

How do I feel right now?

At this very moment I kinda find myself in the shoes of a batsman who's made 90+ runs in the game of cricket and is not sure if he's gonna make it to the ton or not(the ball that he just smashed up in the air is going to be a sixer or he'll be caught at the boundary line)?

Every passing moment is kind of killing me, I am not very result oriented on this but the expectations of others and myself are kinda breathing down my neck. I just want to get over with the weekend. This is going to be my first official step towards my LIFE, eh? Thanks to Bammi, I feel confident that I deserve to be in his part of the world. I just hope that it turns out to be a fair deal. I hope, I will be honest in my efforts and I will make it large(decent) for me and my loved ones.

I have been very choosy and now my whole life kinda depends on this one aspiration of mine. I hate it the most when I don't see other alternative ways, for my own life. I know that life goes on but as of now this is the only way I am going to enjoy life of my own choices and it's consequences. I am too scared to even think of the other not so pleasant result of my aspiration.

What if I don't make it for my maple dream?

If I don't make it, then it's going to be my fault only and I won't have anybody else to blame it on. I like the strong sense of ownership, it makes me more responsible and thus the aspiration even dearer.. Many people give up their lifetime to figure out what they want. I think, I know what I want and I won't wait for things to happen in my favor on their own, In fact I am going to make them happen!

If things don't turn out my way then.... This won't be the first time for me, I am sure I'll do just fine!

Mr. Sunshine... Sunrise in progress!

Chandler Bing is back to the television world with a full time role of Ben Donovan in his home production Mr. Sunshine!

Mr. Sunshine is based around the Sunshine Center, a second-tier arena in San Diego. Ben Donovan is the general manager of the arena, he's been associated with the place for last 10 years. Ben's 40 and he’s a gloomy, self-absorbed loner. Ben is well equipped to deal with whims and fancies of the arena owner Crystal, a crazy, narcissistic and pill-popping woman. Thus practically running the place all by himself. Ben has also been dragged into rebuilding Crystal's relationship with her naive but good for nothing son Roman. Roman has been appointed as assistant to Ben, replacing his old lunatic but pretty assistant Heather. Ben's been in an on and off relation with Alice the marketing lady. Alice ends her friends with benefits relation with Ben to be exclusive with  Alonzo. Alonzo is a former NBA player and is an absolute optimist. Mr. Sunshine is about twists and turns of these characters often leading to laughter.

Matthew Perry has created a huge impact on all of our minds through his portrayal of Chandler Bing in Friends. It indeed is a great deal to create a bigger impact with his new role. So far in last three episodes of Mr. Sunshine, you see tremendous efforts from him to move out of the shadow of his previous successful role. However, every now and then you will see glimpse of the previous character, may be thats the real Matthew Perry. I don't believe in judging a book by it's cover so I am definitely going to carry on reading, in this case watching the show. The idea of sports and entertainment arena for the workplace is refreshing and potential, lets just wait and watch how it turns out to be in execution. I somehow was constantly getting the 30 Rock feeling while watching it, there were way too many similarities. If thats true then Mr. Sunshine is lacking the strong and powerful leadership of Jack Donaghy for sure!

Kitten ^_^

He's always been a cat lover!

Sometimes he's so annoying that you'll feel like shooting him first and then to yourself. Sometimes he's so adorable that sugar and honey can borrow sweetness from him. Sometimes he spends like he owns the world. Sometimes he deserves a noble prize for misery. In short, he is the extremist! There is nothing like a midway, nothing can be normal when he's around. Love him, hate him but you can't ignore him!

So, last night he was fooling around with his new kitten. As I mentioned earlier, he possesses the special ability to annoy anyone, even to the dead ones, eh? The poor kitten had to use it's paw and sharp claws..grrrr...  Post kitten's revenge, he had to run to the physiologist for the shot.

The whole day he kept humming the same tune repetitively over numerous calls. He was holding the kitten in his arms while he was boring me. It was the melancholy cry from the kitten that reassured me that I wasn't alone in this. So foolish of me to think that he would have learnt his lesson. This is exactly what happens to you when you are loved by an incorrigible cracked pot ;)

Pink Champagne...

All my life I've been good but now what the hell!!!

Nah! I am just kidding that was just a line from Avril's new chart. I am still good and hope to be all my life.

I am an astute drink enthusiast, I love trying new stuff. I don't drink to get high and fall off to sleep, I drink to relish the the uniqueness of every drink. I love the way alcohol taste lingers on your taste buds. I am fascinated by the vapors those dissolve in the thin air while you are pouring the drink.

Thanks to the social media stint, I now know li'l bit about the alcohol space, the biggies and the niche items. Once, my ex boss told me about the 80 - 20 rule, around 80% of the sales in alcohol space is of 20% of the products, those which have been associated with big brands, distributed and marketed internationally. There are still 80% of the products which constitute to the 20% of the sales. These products are often regional favorites and I strongly believe that most of them are potential enough to be a part of good times globally. It's just that their existence is limited to very small population. Thus, most us have to make peace with only 20% of the magic!

Champagne!!!  something that I am yet to taste but what makes it even more special is that I am very very keen about tasting Pink Champagne. May it be 'An affair to remember' or 'Glee', I think universe is trying to push me forward for my desire to raise a glass of Pink Champagne!

Missing Cougar Town...

Cougar town is yet another sitcom that I am hooked to. Courtney Cox plays her age in her home production. It's a story of a lady and her group of friends(inclusive of her ex husband and her college going son) and their non stop tickling banter. They all are always sipping wine, except poor Trav. The cat fights between Eli and Lorry and the loouuuve between Bobby and Andy are the highlights of the show. Sometime's you really feel pity for Grayson for being part the maddening mayhem that Jules drags him to. I love to see Tom's struggle for inclusion in the mad gang and Trav's efforts to be a good son and also to be a grown up at the same time. It's hilarious when Barb and Jules are in the frame. If you are a die hard fan of Friends then I am sure you'll love CT as well... It's so much fun and nostalgia when the stars from the make guest appearances!

CT is fun and there are no two thoughts about it, but the main reason for it's admiration that there is no negative character. It's the only show where I have seen the exs n currents, witty n dumb living in peace and harmony. This show really epitomizes the true togetherness and the loved one's of this era, who'll stand by you no matter what!

P.S.

If you have lost track of know who's who, you have to watch this show :P

So Chicken of me!

Till when can you call somebody as your friend???

Eww and Dirty Pig have been in my life for long time now. I have shared some of the lighter moments of my life with both of them separately. When together, both of them need me more than myself and the rest of the world for those moment (li'l exaggerated may be)!

My life was parallel to each of their's till everything was stable, ordinary and normal in a very frustrating manner. Eww is happy and excited about her future life, she not only figured out her destination but also has started her journey too. My best wishes for all her future endeavors.

DP is stable and still trying to figure out her destination. DP expects me to be with her in every step and every decision and may be is pissed with me for bailing out. I on the other hand, have tried to help her in almost all possible ways. Perhaps being with her till last breath and reassuring her of her choices, preventing her from choking out is what she expects out of me. Had I been of the other gender or had both of us been homos I would have married her. Love wouldn't have been the base but trust and companionship would have been the pillars and I am sure our marriage would have worked.

I feel bad for DP, especially when I know exactly what she feels. I hate the fact that she is constantly missing out on all possible glittery moments of her life. She has been failing to identify that one eternal crazy destination to chase and this for sure has started to show up on a lot of things, her deteriorating health for that matter.

 I may have been selfish with a lot of people that I don't care about but I have never been selfish with my people. Thus,when I can't be true always, need to pretend, feel distant and have to try hard to carry on I just don't hang in there I chicken out! It may not be normal but I like to miss out on things which would have been worsened by my presence. If I can't hold it together then I don't want to be there to see it fall apart either, this whole I'll always be there for you seems so rubbish at times!

The Manipulative Bitch!

This day has been turning out to be one of those horrendous days of my life when everything seems to be falling apart. First thing first, I woke up  almost 4 hours later than my usual time. As soon as I opened my email inbox there it was - A Wedding Invitation!!!! Invitation from the person I used to hate the most in this entire world - the manipulative bitch! To add on, had a fight with ma on the dining table and I am still without food and extremely grumpy...

This manipulative bitch, is one of those darker people of my life whom I am constantly trying to bury deep inside my secret closet. I have paid some hefty amount to get rid of her, and I hate it when her shadows cross my way. I am ignorant about her existence in this world until she tries to sneak in to my life. At one point I hated her the most, however now I really don't know because I don't feel anything about her...

I for sure was upset when I saw the email but not because she is getting married but because it was her writing me, another way of sneaking in to my life. Leaving all the bitterness aside I was happy for both of them. In my response, I congratulated the couple, avoiding any further communication/miscommunication and I closed my inbox. Next time when I checked my mailbox, there was a response to my email to the couple! In my haste to get over with it, I just read the insistence on attending the wedding and without any thoughts I politely declined the invitation not realizing it was the beau who had written to me. I simply hit the reply tab instead of reply all and thus have paved path for many mis-communications!

Finally, I don't give a tiny rat's ass to this further. I hope that this was the full and final interaction with the manipulative bitch. I really wish her luck and happiness for all her future endeavors in life, hope she keeps off my life forever!