Insomnia hits one more time!

Random Thought:
"Sometimes when too much of anything starts adversely affecting the deal then letting go is the best solution."

Officially on break from school but life's too domesticated that nothing's happening. I have fcuked the routine one more time and have to get back back to normal routine asap. Liking the changes in the atmosphere and the one's within. I hate the nice me who kinda is way too gullible but the croocked me is kinda way too kewl. Good in fact great Chrstmas, million times better than the Diwali. I miss baapoo the most, I really love my old man sometimes more than his once upon a time better half. I just long to spend a weekend with with them which will be very soon and I am really looking forward to it, infact I have started with me shopping already! ;)

Finances have been drastically improved, this one I really owe to me old man and his continious support. I am glad that he's been the nicest father when I list expected him to be. Me extra niceness with the family kinda leaves me thinking but in the end it's all good they all deserved to be treated well. I share this special bond with the three members that I just wish it to last for a while before I officially part my ways. I like being selfish and shrewd with this one, since he's totally worth it especially with that corny accent, unnecessary greed and being the smarty pants wherever we go. I miss thee but I am too scared to express these days 'coz the more I did the more ineffective it felt.  Thy art happy in your own little part of the world and me in mine and the two can't run parallel in harmony at least not at the moment. I wish you wouldn't have been such a disaster to friendship and for a moment I actually thought that we could be great friends and then you went around playing the back stabbing games of yours and thus killed it for me. :(

Thanks for being so informal and sweetly dumb that I felt a step closer to you. I deeply feel for you hope you do the magic trick for me. Nonetheless I empathise with you for what you've gone through and I salute your courage I think you did a neat job of masking your sorrows. Sadly, our eyes were way too curious and we got what we didn't anticipate. We do respect you and your secret will be safe with us. I hate your increasing proximity towards me, especially when you're not so nice with your own folks and always going out of your way for me. I don't want this leading to any misunderstandings which could shake my comfort zone but there's not much I can do about it. I need this special attention that I am getting from you. :)