Uncomfortably Numb!

I have to admit I am not in the best of mindsets right now because:

• My latest work related discussion didn't go as well as I would have liked it to go (attempt at winging it didn't go that well).
• Bank account is reaching its bottom and no source of income yet, not even a distant possibility!
• I'm extremely dissatisfied with my current living arrangements and so to say I am really not that excited about my upcoming temporary living arrangements too!
• I am literally starving myself to death because of my current living arrangements. Eternally hungry me is eternally grumpy me.
• I am getting all jealous and cranky about this so called "Platonic" friendship.
• I miss Louie so much, can't live with or without her.
• Nymph from land of the the skies is hell bent of getting rid of my stuff, for which I have no control to tackle the situation with her. I have decided to just give up on rest of the everything and stick to my wardrobe. If I made decent money I will be able to replenish the missing stuff in no time. 
• TBH I really feel lonely, I really wish upon somebody who would be there for me(romantically) no matter what!

To sum it up I'm jobless, penniless, homeless (figuratively), hungry and lonely. Not an ideal situation, but I know that this should pass too. I'm just glad that I'm trying my level best not to irk people on the way. I will be able to pave my way through these adversities.
Just a little while ago all I cared about was a status, now that I have a legal status. I have these new list of worries. As we progress in life our worries shift their shapes and appearances but continue their existence in one form or the other.

Tale of a nocturnal creature!

Life's completed a full circle. Here I am back in TO. Crashing at Viv's for a month and then planning to move in with Nash and Tib's new humongous palace.
Lots has happened in last two and a half years. I moved to Queen City, found employment, started working towards immigration paperwork. Boo's out of the world unbelievable (-ve) behavior forced me to break off one of the most precious friendships of my life. Met D, who's come to so close of becoming my soulmate (in a very platonic manner) but his idiotic behavior forces me to keep him at one arm's distant. It just isn't easy to confide in him. Anyways made some out of the world progress at work, and then because of callus and lousy work ethics of a red neck lost it all. Had to pack my bags and move back to Ngp. On my way back built one of the most beautiful friendship, with Enthu Paplet who shall be referred from here onwards as Elli. Whom I owe a lot for bringing me much closer to myself. Learned about crazy ordeals of Da' and faced utmost challenges with Louie. Any who made an appeal to be back to Maple land. Meanwhile lived Ago, rock star style. Started proceedings on the appeal. One thing led to another and finally all my worries evaporated and here I am typing this post from TO. My favorite genre in TV has changed from Sitcoms to Crime, Mystery dramas. Also,i have developed an extra special liking for Country and Jazz music. Swimming seems to be my new game. Meanwhile amidst all the drama, love seemed to have entered my life only to realize that both Doctor n PM were not the real things. Not denying I liked both of them a lot. Oh well! When it's not meant to be then it simply isn't!
Turned 28 in S'pur. Have decided going forward will be in some new country every year on the big day. I miss the warrior prince but that's another tragedy of my life, I guess love won't come easy in my life. Anyway for now what matters is a decent chance at the employment for which I am trying my level best. With hopes n prayed that everything is going to be just fine! 

R.I.P. Mrs. Doubtfire

I still can't come to terms with the fact that comedy icon Robin Williams has left us, nowhere to be found again!
Dedicated to the life of the legend, my few words:

For he once was a baby boy,
Vulnerable for his mumma's touch
Funny boy his teacher thought to himself
He had it in him just didn't know then
Vary of him the world slept fast asleep
So did the little funny boy
When it came to the choices
Funny boy, funny man now took the road less traveled or should we say road that led to highest failure
But he knew that he had it in him
So without any further doubts
The world embraced brilliant Mrs. Doubtfire
He was his woman's comrade in arms
The father to the zee stars where love knew no bounds
He rose to his fame and fortune
Only to lose himself in the applaud of the globe
What seemed hearty and hale
Was turning hollow, day by day
Years went by only to realize
No pill, no Syringe could cure the invisible symptoms any more
He was tired, tired of his silence
Tired of the invisible demons that haunted him
For him everyday was a battle that he had been fighting for years
Sunshine often played hide n seek in his humorous kingdom
For he once was a boy vulnerable for his mumma's touch
He thought to himself 'Enough is enough!'
Demons of depression shall never defeat the king of comedy
He rather chose a clean surrender
Waved his white flag
Left the loves of his life in tears of sorrow and pain
As the world mourns the tragedy of king of comedy
Let us remember the 5 minutes of magic that he brought to our lives!

Dedicated to the life of a legend, his love, his family and his millions of fans around the globe!

I Heart(ed) Downton Abbey!

Well well, I'm quite surprised that I haven't written anything in last 2 years. Although I do see couple of posts in my drafts folder but unfortunately they never made it on to the published journal. Lots has happened in last 24 months but that's saved in for later posts.

Right now it's all about "Downton Abbey". I have just finished watching the first four series of Downton Abbey back to back. In fact that's all I have done in last 3 days or so. I must say that I feel exhilarated. The whole 'DA' experience has been one of a kind for me. You see I've got a huge thing for British Period Stories/Dramas. I'm totally a Jane Austen / Jane Eyre girl and I'm glad that this has been the first series that I hadn't read the book before watching.

Right now I could go endlessly about DA but I would like to pen down my most heart warming accounts:

1. The bloom in Mary Crawley's character from pilot to Christmas Special of 2013 has been just impeccable. She truly is an heroine (or should I say heiress) whom you can't resist falling for. Kudos to Michelle Dockery for a fabulous portrayal of girl power in post Edwardian era.
2. I absolutely love the sass and wits in the character of Violet Crawley the Dowager Countess of Grantham. Maggie Smith is so adorable that she takes the whole 'DA' experience to all the new levels. She's most enjoyable with Penelope Wilton's in the frame. Together Lady Violet and Isoble are show stealers. 
3. I absolutely adore the character of Charlie Carlson. Jim Cater emerges like a flawless phoenix. Carlson's discipline, sarcasm and beyond all his impeccable loyalty and kind heartedness is amazing. His affection for Mary and his chemistry with Mrs. Hughes is like a cherry on the cake. Like his on and off drama when Mr. Mosley is in the frame. (Giggles) His character is a true Father Goose for me.
4. Elizabeth McGovern's portrayal of Cora. the Countess of Grantham is so brilliant that she comes across as such matriarchal figure. She's so compassionate, kind and soft that she melts your heart away.
5. Till season 3 Jessica Brown Findlay as Lady Sybil was gorgeous. I missed her in series 4.
6. I enjoy the friendship between Mrs. Patmore and Mrs. Hughes. Especially Mrs. Patmore's sarcasm with her kitchen maids and footmen.
7. Anna as Mary's personal maid is brilliant and Joanne Froggatt deserves a big pat on the back for her wonderful portrayal of the character.
8. Love, love, loved (& still do) the gorgeous men starting from Dan Stevens, Rob James-Collier to Tom Cullen.
9. All the gossip, banter, secrets and drama downstairs looks like the secret key ingredient.
10. I absolutely love the fact that each and every character is shown to be human with their own strengths and opportunities. They depend on each other and can very well coexist without overshadowing each other.

All and all, I absolutely HEART <3 5.="" and="" forward="" looking="" p="" series="" to="">